The very truth of our life is throughout our life we want the things to get happen in the way we desire. Each day we expect certain things from ourselves, our friends and from our life. It becomes painful when these expectations doesn’t get fulfilled. Its been more than one and half month at Infosys, Mysore, and Life seems to be a bit monotonous. There is a fixed schedule of everything. Today it’s my sixth weekend which I wasted doing nothing other than studying. Now I find myself to be incapable of differentiating between these two vague terms “Weekends” and “Weekdays”. I planned few things before this weekend and these few things are being overridden by studies constructor of my life.
Being a part of a Multi Billion company superficially seems very pleasant and perhaps I’m not feeling gloomy because of workload or I hate studying. I’m feeling gloomy because now I can’t do the things according to my desire. I’v to change the priorties of my life and that too because of someone else.I’m feeling gloomy because everyday I recalled my college days and realized that those days days have passed away and never gone to happen again. I missed my college friends and later found that I don’t have time even to pick their phone calls. Friends have always been my top priority whether its been my school days or college Days, but now things got changed, in corporate life they becomeeven more difficult. I’m feeling gloomy because since the day I’v reached here,our multiplex has screened 12 movies and I’v missed 11 out of them, not because I don’t wanted to watch them. Infact, those who know me, know it well that I’m a big movie freak. I missed the pre lunch classes on Friday throughout 4 years. I’m feeling gloomy because since past 10 days I wanted to read “Half a Life” by Naipul but I’v to read my slides in place of it. I’m feeling gloomy because on the first day after reaching Mysore I purchased TT Rackets but never got time to use them.
I’m in company at a place where there are more than 40000 like me, I’m no cynosure and hold no unique identity. I’v been given a mailbox from which I can shoot mails only to those whom I see daily. I’v been provided an internet connection who loves to load “Access Denied “ page. I’m a desperate MBA aspirant, but now I can’t even dreamt of preparing for MBA.
Since the day start, so start my running. I don’t know where I have to run and why I have to run, what I know is only to run, the fear of not loosing in the race makes me to run. I find myself to be a part of big crowd where each one is more or less same. But the irony lies in the fact how many of them feels in the same way. I don’t know whether I’m expecting too much from my life or I’m just masochist. I don’t know.
Dont worry dude..initial days are like that only…things will be fine and u will get the same free time soon
Well written, good that you have been thinking, bad that you have been doing it negatively ! Things change, priorties change, past is past, don’t hang over past too much … there are so many silver linings, understand what u r doing and u’ll start appreciating it. you are not unique now but you can become one and that too easily. Just start appreciating the things around u !
Written well as always 🙂
Wonderful piece of writing, it happens.. Don’t wry you shall miss dese days one day.. Have a chill pill and enjoy life 🙂
Been masochist.. Bully 🙂
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